I’ve always had this strong inclination to help people. I think most people would probably say this about theirself.
Last summer I started volunteering at British Red Cross and I loved it, but I started university and I stopped being able to make it due to revision etc. I put myself before helping others, basically. But through doing this, although it seems like I’m putting myself first, I actually lost a part of myself, and it wasn’t until today whilst watching a documentary about homelessness that I realised what the part of myself that was missing actually was. It’s the desire to help people that isn’t fulfilled that’s causing the gap.
The gap is primarily due to my disconnection with God (which I’m currently mending) and disconnection with the needs of my soul (which is, on some level, harder to mend), but also this lack of fulfilment.
I feel like I get so wrapped up in the superficiality of this life: the way I look, my grades, what others think of me etc. And it makes me lose sight of what’s important and then I wonder why I feel so unhappy and empty.
My advice to anyone reading this is, forget about all your superficial worries and burdens, ignore any thoughts about the past or future and ask yourself ‘is my soul happy and fulfilled? If not, what can I do to make it happy and satisfied?’ because that’s the most important thing of all. Take care of your soul.